The Friend
You are sleeping tight in your bed
Next to your husband, so well fed
You don`t have nightmares, sleepless nights
Like a newborn baby, right?
You don`t struggle, you don`t care
The purely ordinary things you dare
To think about and only do
Cause now you`re one of them, its true?
Before that you would sleep around
Been exploring the whole town
Checking out every single one in trousers
Your bravery is stunning, they were thousands!
You would say to me in a voice unkind:
“The truth in books you`ll never find
A man, a man, will do the trick
And you don`t stand a chance, what do you think?”
Just look at you, the state of your affairs
Whatever you do, nobody would care!
Who the hell do you think you are?
The way you are, you won`t get far!
But lend me money, would you?
Be there for me, could you?
This type of friendship I can offer you
Cause your shadow, its too scary, cruel!
I will make sure it is gone
I will demolish it, its what I want!
The reason is - I fear you
My marriage proposals, they might get so few
I will make sure that you get so small
I will make sure that you fall
Into the depths of harsh contempt
From it, you`ll never be exempt
Around you I just cannot thrive
I cannot live, I can`t be anybody`s wife
The only way would be to just expel you
From my presence, I can tell you
Or maybe I need you
Unless you`re married, ugly or life impedes you
Or else you don`t exist to me
As long as you are skinny, single, free!
And look at you! You are still renting!
So shameful, your life is pending!
You don`t have anything, you`re still in school
You`re such a terrible pathetic fool!
You won`t even get to where I am
You won`t be ever one of them
It takes a child! It takes a man!
And you would never have it, damn!
You are a threat to my well-being
To my ways of seeing
To my family, which on a lie is built
Who I am, they`ll never know, no drop of guilt!
I`d rather use you as an outlet
For my frustrations, for my needs unmet
Cause I pretend so much, it`s perfect
But my secret it would never surface!”
Your lie, my friend, is beautiful, sincere
I do not mind this, it so appears
Your name I even have forgotten
But your ways so twisted, broken
The memory of them, it haunts me
It turned into a beast that wants me
A beast of flesh and bones, corrupted
A beast that everyone around me had adopted
A beast that wouldn´t let me sleep at night
A beast that brought me to the end, inside
A beast that seemed to be my spouse
By all of you, my friends, aroused
A beast that was with me entrusted
I married it, despite being disgusted
You did it all for me, indeed a huge favour
Whatever you dished out, it was my job to take, without a quaver
So with the beast I shared a bed
I shared my meals, I shared my bread
Guess what, impossible, it all has been
I stood no chance somebody else`s heart to win
I´ve gotten used to him, he even has a name
My best friend, so beautiful, so tame
If I didn´t have him, where would I go?
I don`t see anyone opening their door.
It is you, my dear friends, I have to thank
Your words of poison that I drank
Hate and jealousy so intertwined!
I wish that I would never find
Anyone like you until I die
But when I did, I wondered why
“the why” is obvious indeed
You`d like to see someone down there at your feet
You`d like to feel, enormous, big!
You definitely get a kick
Of feeling so in charge
Of feeling the entitlement to barge
Into people`s lives unwanted
And you would flaunt it
your values are the right ones, it is so
The others` - not at all!
I was addicted to that sort
But not any more, it was a dangerous sport!
The likes of you, I do avoid
It`s you its all about, and that`s the point
It took me an eternity to come home,
You are not welcome here, no!
It is a pity, yes, indeed
But never mind, it`s me, my creed
My nature and my ways
I´m glad for it, despite the pain
I know that you would never change, I know
Your best sides to me you have shown
I`m glad I`m free from your disdain
But I feel sorry for child and man!
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